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There's some chaos in my private life that's interfering with my ability to concentrate, so I may be on the slow side with the next comic, but I am working on it. You can find the rough sketch in the usual place. (Click Next from the current color full-size page.) I hope to post the next update roundabouts Friday.

This next comic page is kind of fillerish because of the above mentioned chaos. As befits the auto-fictional-graphic nature of Out of phase tomboy, said chaos is likely to be illustrated at least in part in upcoming pages.

I'm also working on new, improved, vitamin-enriched (with no trans fat, of course ;) versions of chibi nous-même.

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Copic marker-colored version of the current Out of phase tomboy page. This image was scanned from one of the cards I sent.

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A new comic in the "Multiple Muse Disorder" arc has been posted to Out of phase tomboy.

And that's a wrap for 2009! We'll be back in 2010, which means I need to sit down at the drafting board and draw, doesn't it? I have a rough sketch for e4/01 almost done...

Making some progress in Star Ocean:till the end of time. The map confuses the hell out of me; I keep going the wrong way, back through the door I just exited, et cetera. This is weird, because me and maps usually get along just fine. I think its because north doesn't stay in one place, and because having an arrow indicate my current position just does not compute somewhere in my brain. And what the hell is the deal with all the stupid titles in bookcases? Is this a localization failure, or a sense of humor failure?

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I was seriously tempted to go two weeks without setting foot outside my building, but I made myself go to the convenience store today when I took letters down front to mail. I don't plan on going out again until next Tuesday, when I have lunch with M&B.

Joined [info]introverts. Should a left-handed trans celiac introvert otaku with poor eyesight be allowed to exist? Probabilities multiply together; if the result becomes small enough . . . perhaps that explains my talent/curse of invisibility?

Arguing furiously with myself about writing. I want to write. I've been writing since I was old enough to hold a pencil. I have ideas, things to say. But I'm just talking to myself. Is this how I want to spend my time?
 
 
 
 
 
 
Last night, after playing Star Ocean for a few hours, I watched The Shonen Merikensack,* which stars Aoi Miyazaki (Nana, Heavenly Forest, Virgin Snow, et cetera). It was beyond ROFL; I was hiccuping with laughter. Synopsis: young office worker in music business discovers what she thinks is a hot punk band on the 'net and convinces her boss to let her manage the band. However, she didn't notice the video was twenty years old, the band is long since defunct and the four band members are stereotypes of aging punk rockers. There's much absurd farce and punk/rock music industry send-up, but also a good deal of humanity and a lot of very good acting. Definitely on my watch again soon list!

Still reading Be With You (Takuji Ichikawa) slowly, because it really hits close to home. Considering how popular this book was/is, one can only assume that many people feel the same way. It's part of the pure love exists to be stepped on by Godzilla fad of the first part of this decade, so it's a tearjerker, but in a good way.

Brunch today was a rice/bean/lentil burger on a rice bun, with mustard. I don't think I will ever forget what wheat-based food tastes like, but I think that after almost four years gluten-free, I can say I don't miss it. (Except when everyone around me is eating stuff I can't eat and I am, as usual, eating a salad because nothing else is safe.)

* I have the Hong Kong release, with English and Chinese subtitles.
 
 
 
 
 
 
I didn't turn Eilonwy (my big Mac) on for the past two days, but I kept busy.

Thursday I woke up at 3:00 am and knew I couldn't sleep, so I finished reading the Spice and Wolf novel in bed. Got up, did odds and ends like tune the guitars, cat napped, read Boogiepop at Dawn. Finished the day by playing Star Ocean: till the end of time* for a while, then watched Whisper of the Heart, one of my all time favorites.

Friday morning I played Gurumin to see the Christmas decorations and wear the Santa suit around town. Made it through another Grotto dungeon, which gave me enough junk to upgrade the nightcap to level 4, and then I was able to defeat Mosby and obtain a life crystal to bring my HP up to 70. So, because of my hands I still can't play this game often, but Parin is now well enough equipped to have a chance at making further progress at the 'hard' difficulty level. That made me happy, because I really like this game.

Began reading Be With You, then spent several hours futzing with Copic markers and coloring new year's cards for the two people who sent me cards. (Under the cut is my drawing table after I finished.) I changed the color scheme to better match how the pages colored in Manga Studio look when printed, and I adopted the E00/R11/R02 flesh tones that CLAMP use in the how-to section of CLAMP South Side.

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I made my veggie/miso/tofu crock-pot thing. Didn't play any Star Ocean because I don't want to wreck my hands with too much gaming in one day. Listened to music (HMC), watched most of Kotoko's 2004 'White Christmas' Tokyo concert, watched a bit of Those Who Hunt Elves (the box is red and green and there are elves, so it's an Xmas theme, right?) and finished up by watching the live-action Boogiepop and others movie.

This morning I cut, folded and addressed cards. Mailed the two that go to Florida. I'm playing around with an idea for a story.

* I'm only a little way into SO:tteot but it's looking good, with an engaging story and characters that are already developing depth. Also unlike Dragon Quest VIII there are frequent save points, even on the world map. Happy about this, too.
 
 
 
 
 
 
A filler comic in the "Multiple Muse Disorder" arc has been posted to Out of phase tomboy.

This basically is a doodle that I went all the way with. I'm not certain I'm finished futzing with it.

Except for Risa and Resu I'm alone for the next two weeks, as usual this time of year.

So . . . reading the Spice and Wolf novel, and the Boogiepop novels. Still watching El Cazador de la Bruja. May watch the live-action Boogiepop and others movie tomorrow night. (Hey; it's seasonal, or at least it's about the essential loneliness of the human condition and all that.)

I'm temporarily burned out on Dragon Quest VIII. I like it as a game, but as with the early Final Fantasy games, the story and character development (lack thereof) don't sustain my interest. So I'm going to switch to Star Ocean: till the end of time for a while.

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A new comic in the "Multiple Muse Disorder" arc has been posted to Out of phase tomboy.

This finishes the "Little Match Muse" mini-arc, and the regular comic pages for 2009. I will probably post another page or two, but no promises.

I'm spending most of the next two weeks with my imaginary but nevertheless very real and important friends, snuggled under the kotatsu reading manga, watching anime, playing games and listening to music. There will be days I don't even turn on the computer. Lisa unplugged!

There will be a new year's page, followed by more comics. Anything I do before that will be noted here.

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ETA: The Little Match Muse mini-arc is part of Spec the Halls this year.
 
 
 
 
 
 
Now that I'm no longer President, my board meeting notes are more free-form.

I slept ten hours last night, but I'm still feeling tired from Tue/Wed. We played many games of Munchkin, watched The Adventures of Buckaroo Bonzai Across the Eighth Dimension and Ice Station Zebra, and talked and stuff. Good times.

I'm coloring page 31, so it will go up tomo or Saturday.

I have art supplies; I have food and drink; Spice and Wolf are at my door; in DQ8 we have a ship; and in El Cazador Ellis and Nadie are holding hands. Now I just need to make it through the so-called holidays. We will do our best! Fight!

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A new comic in the "Multiple Muse Disorder" arc has been posted to Out of phase tomboy. Posting a bit sooner than anticipated, but it's done, so why not? I'm aiming to have the final page in this mini-arc up for Monday the 21st.

Did not sleep well, but it's snowing and the two (real) people I like most in all the worlds will be here soon, so... happy!

In addition to my New Year's card, I'm planning on doing something specifically for use on CafePress shirts with the current character designs. Also, since I format the comic pages for print publication, I'm thinking about putting together a small Lulu book to test how that works. But I usually have more creative ideas than I have hours in the day, so we'll see.

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There was another false fire alarm about 4:00 pm today, while I was working on coloring page 30. I don't have enough fingers to count the times the fire alarm has gone off in the less than three years I've lived here, only one of which was an actual fire. The klaxon is about eight feet from me when I'm working at my big mac, and it's *&^@#%^$ loud!

So now my nerves are even more shot than usual. At least I managed a decent night's sleep last night, because I'll be wide awake at every mouse whisper tonight. With M&B staying over tomorrow night, I'm likely to be exhausted by Wednesday.
 
 
 
 
 
 
I inked page 30 in Manga Studio and printed it on two different A4 papers. The panels are pretty large, so tomorrow I'm going to color this page using Copic markers, though I expect I'll go ahead and color it in Manga Studio for publication to be consistent with the other pages in this mini-arc.

The editorial in the December AARP Bulletin talks about the national debate on health care reform and spends several paragraphs noting how the Internet has changed public debate. "Unfortunately, in this outpouring we've also seen an ugly underside that is vulgar, abusive and racist and has no place in civil discourse." Welcome to the 'net. Solve that problem and figure out how to make micropayments work and maybe I'll put these wirecutters away.

I studied philosophy and psychology in college hoping to better understand why things are the way they are. Unfortunately, I succeeded, and have been even more depressed ever since.

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I received a Christmas card in the mail, so since I still have almost two weeks, I figured I'd make one to send back, which is what this rough sketch is for.

I'm trying to not be horribly depressed by all the stupidity about and hatred for trans people I see on the 'net, but it's not working. I don't participate in much of anything any longer, and this is why. I can stand very little of this hurtful crap with only Resu and Risa for support.

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BoarsHead Theatre (the small professional theater in town) just announced that they are canceling the remainder of their season because they simply have no money. The oldest community theater group in town has already indefinitely suspended doing mainstage shows for the same reason. We gave up our autonomy and merged with the City of East Lansing's programs for the same reason. The bottom has to be down there somewhere...

Reading Wish and reflecting on the fact that CLAMP wrote it with the angels and devils having no gender. In translation Tokyopop decided to assign angels as female and devils as male. They should have hired someone like me to localize it without gender. (Hah! Like that would ever happen!)

Going to go look some more for the Moonshadow Harp, then begin watching El Cazador de la Bruja. The latter is one of the "girls with guns" anime from Bee Train and Koichi Mashimo that includes Noir and Madlax. (I suppose Avenger should be on the list, if swords are allowed.)

Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
— Dylan Thomas

 
 
 
 
 
 
A new comic in the "Multiple Muse Disorder" arc has been posted to Out of phase tomboy.

The weather here in Michigan is very much in sync with the comic right now. The next page will have a much warmer feel to it!

As much as I hate to admit it—because I'm old and set in my ways—inking in Manga Studio 4 is working very well and I like the result. So I'm probably going to continue doing this for regular comic pages.

During the next few weeks I hope to do a few fillers and such the olde way. I need to update the selection in my CafePress store, too.

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M&B were here this afternoon. We played one of the Stonehenge anthology games twice, once to figure out the rules, then Settlers of Catan, then watched an episode of Xena. And talked a lot. They're staying over a night next week and I'll do the gifting thing. It's so nice having the three of us sitting at the kotatsu!

Finished watching Kanon last night. Switched from trying to play Gurumin to the Kanon visual novel on the PSP. I don't try to translate all of it, but it's very useful to see the written Japanese that corresponds to the spoken parts, and I do look up some kanji I see often, so it will be good for learning. And it's fun, and uses only my right hand. On the PS2 I'm still playing Dragon Quest VIII. I won't begin Star Ocean: till the end of time until I'm done with that. Anyway, I was able to do my arm exercises this morning with the 3 lb weight.

Temps are in the teens (F) for a while, so I have my Hello Kitty humidifier running. Did some more inking and coloring on page 29 this morning, so I'll be able to finish it and post it tomorrow. I'm sure not going for walkies in this weather; the wind chill has been below zero F all day.

Going to post my FFF on [info]fortysomething, fix my rice, read the latest volume of Hayate X Blade and go to sleep.
 
 
 
 
 
 
Today my left arm can't lift the 3 lb weight I use for arm exercises. I think I'm simply going to have to give up on playing Gurumin through again, at the 'hard' level. The puzzles aren't harder, but there are more enemies and they are more difficult to beat, which means more button mashing with my thumbs.

I just can't do it, much as I want to. I'll have to stick to turn-based RPGs and visual novels that do not require me to move my thumbs and fingers quickly or constantly. So it goes.

Almost done re-watching Kanon. Supposed to turn very cold this weekend, so it's time for Diamond Daydreams (北へ). Received the first volume of the re-published YKK, which is very nice! New non-glossy covers and a set of color pages. So happy they are doing this! Yotsuba&! 9 is out in Japan, too.

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I've pretty much decided to not write any more. Drawing is much more fun than writing, and more personally rewarding. I've been writing all my life, but I don't even much feel like it anymore. There are too many words out there already.

I need to put more time into studying Japanese. I listen to it all the time, so my vocabulary is increasing, but I can only improve my grammar by reading. Yokohama Kaidashi Kikou is good for that. It doesn't have furigana, but the dialogue is very simple and mostly in hiragana.

 
 
 
 
 
 
A new comic in the "Multiple Muse Disorder" arc has been posted to Out of phase tomboy.

This one is also inked in Manga Studio, which I will continue to do for this mini-arc (three more pages).

I'm done with show photography for now, so I'm trying to catch up on the comic. I have two pages drawn, ready to ink and color; another page sketched that needs to be drawn, inked and colored; and a New Year's something-or-other to think up, probably to be colored with Copic markers.

We have our first winter storm watch for tomorrow night. I'll go out to the convenience store tomorrow morning to stock up on essentials. Now that I don't have health insurance I need to avoid the ice-clad urban landscape at its worst.

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Last night I fell asleep under my kotatsu while watching Kanon, so I hereby declare winter!

Finished processing the show photos this afternoon. Haven't burned the CDs yet; I'll do that tomorrow. Next week I'll roll the site over for the next show: Dragonsong.

Late in the afternoon I did some more inking and coloring on page 28. As I become used to the vector tools in Manga Studio 4 I'm liking them more and more. However...

It makes me sad that I can do better work inking and coloring on the computer. I like art tools and supplies! The texture of paper, the smell of inks. I miss that about photography, too. But my hands hurt, my eyes are so bad. :: sigh ::

This is one of the hardest things about growing old: the world in which I grew up is gone, except in my memory, yet I'm still here, struggling to keep up and wondering if it's worth the effort.

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Spent most of the day working with photos. Have more to do, but a few hours Sat and Sun afternoon should do it; then I can drop off the CDs Tue when I'm in East Lansing for lunch.

I have sketches done (and posted) through page 30, but I'm still inking and coloring page 28. I should be able to get back on schedule soon.

We finally have some winter weather! A little bit of the white stuff and temps significantly below freezing. So, time to shut down, relax, then to dream, perhaps to sleep.
 
 
 
 
 
 
Photography during first dress this evening was somewhat challenging because of the lighting. Results are always better with second dress, once we know what's going on.

This is part of the quick sketch for page 29 that I did this afternoon. This mini-arc has a happy ending, truly it does!

We actually now have snow in the forecast for the first time this winter, for tomorrow night. I'm so happy!

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